I Died Yesterday?...

Well, apparently so. So as this story goes, I was out running errands all alone minding my business. Now for context I have two phones, a personal phone and my work phone, which I left at home. Upon reaching home, I saw some missed calls and one frantic voice note from a dear friend begging me to answer her. When I called her, she was frantic and scared, asking and questioning me, “Are you ok?” and “Where am I now, if I am fine” and I chuckled nervously because as I looked down at myself to make sure I was still in my body… yea i was fine! She then told me of a whatsapp group that I was in years ago, someone had said to pray for me. Which is good, thanks for that! However I was supposedly in hospital fighting for my life. I got a couple calls about it during the day actually and I had to make a video to nip that sucker in the bud - WILD!

Anytihew! After all that, and recapping with my husband, we got into a long conversation about what if it was true and how would he feel if that had happened. He really didn’t want to go into it, because my husband is a full softy when it comes to me and to think about it, well he couldn’t. For me though? I was at peace with it. You know how people say, what do you think is your biggest regret, what would you have done differently and honestly… nothing.

I don't think that in my life I would have changed much, if anything. Especially my choice to be a full time artist. IT'S BEEN HARD!!!! But IT'S ALSO BEEN SOO GOOD! I get to create every day how and when I want, sometimes teach, sometimes experiment and straight up experience things that others cannot. I am making an impact in this world, the way I want to and I never want to ever have that change for me, other than get much better doing it.

Having those calls yesterday made me realize that I am making a mark somewhere, even if it is very small that a little bit of change goes a long way. Deeper and intrenched into people’s hearts, and that gives me a lot of joy to be honest.

I died yesterday and I am still living today.